I finished my IELTS test last weekend, after the GRE writing. I have no idea if I did like shit or otherwise - never had a clear sense about my performance in exams/interviews. Then I had a late night in LKF on Mid Autumn's day sorta to celebrate finishing those two exams in a row. oh hell I was so fucked by them. Thought I was missing LKF/Wan Chai so damn much when its the end of time in bergen, felt like I just need those commercial hip-hop shit and dance hell outta it. But now I started missing the club I had in europe. --- oh AND Sardinia! tell me about it! I miss the whole crew and crazy people can't stop showing their asses around. Best time ever. But now Im in dragon i seeing how some of the whites showing off how previliged they can be no matter in terms of money or the race they possess. But same in Shanghai isnt it, don't you just feel disgusted when some random white guys sticking their tongues into your mouth when they not even communicate well in english. Well of course some of them are just spoiled by the chinese making nothing is impossible for them becomes a reality from a fantasy.
omg I have to apologize if I sound bit racist here -- of course what I said can't be applied to everyone of the population. And like my father always tell me, there're certain culture factors behind that shapes people's personality and way of presentation which might just make the white better off in this situation. (OK let's not get into the economic/political sides ahead.)
Anyways, nights out are fun but I just feel like I cannot afford too much this term -- its my final year after all. And the endless assginments/projects deadline together with those countless recruitment talks, not to mention my thoughts coming ang going over and over again about job opportunities/grad school selections overseas, I could be driven nuts just to marking them down in my schedule as well as in my mind. HK is such a fun place with anything ANYTHING you possible can think of doing, however, Im outside the crowd.
Friends from last year constantly warned me about how hard it is to keep the balance when you're having too much on the list to look for -- what's important, what's of my interest, what concerns my next step, what's possible. And honestly, I have been quite overwhelmed already. Few people knew I have been losing sleep constantly and that kinda robbed my energy of loving life itself. Poor me, still haven't improved any little bit in these years.
Well, it might just be the begining of the game. And Im well determined to go for it.
Love you all.
amanda
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